There’s gotta be More to LIFE than this…

I am confronted with what some might call a mid-life crisis.

I have been waking up everyday with the sickening, sinking feeling that there is gotta be more to life than this…

Day in and day out the same incredible amount of shit on repeat. Nothing fucking changes. People don’t fucking change.

We keep civilizations tied to 2000, 3000, even 5000 year old religions to which we cling to; as a way of filling the void of an empty existence.

We pray to an invisible god that never seems to listen or care to answer, and we get these guys, these representatives, that preach that it is all because of some hidden purpose…

Bullshit!

We see pain as suffering every day and we are supposed to have… Faith?

What an incredibly stupid consolation price!!

Are we supposed to endure when we see a new baby born with Cancer? What is the fucking purpose?

We see people, praying, going to chuches, synagogues, temples pretending to believe in the words that were written a long time ago and that no longer hold any meaning. Then they go home with a brand new clean continence ready do do more harm and produce more hate… Until next week.

Absolution, what a great concept!

We wage wars against each other, supposedly, because of beliefs. It’s not true.

The wars are fought because of one belief. The belief in wealth. The haves against the have-nots.

Don’t believe otherwise, people don’t fight over invisible, omnipresent, omnipotent shit. They want to have what you have and they will kill you for it.

HATE, HATE, HATE

We see it plastered now, in so many different ways. We hate because we are black, red, yellow, white. We hate because of what we know, we hate because of where we come from, we hate because we are too many, we hate because there is not enough…

Don’t look at me, I don’t have an answer. I don’t know the meaning of life.

Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness? Why do we have to hate so much to be happy?

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality…
— Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen

I am getting old and every though in my head is occupied on what is going to be my legacy. What am I leaving my family when I’m not here… Material things, money, an inheritance!!

The purpose is to amount enough wealth so I can leave this mortal coil with the peace of mind, with the satisfaction of a well done Job.

It’s a little selfish.

I think the realization that I got in my old age is that there is nothing more. Nothing more here, nothing more after.

After all, it will mean that we are doing good deeds all because of the rewards…

There are no rewards. There is no heaven, there is no Valhalla, there are no 10,000 virgins. There is just the empty void that we leave in the space that we previously occupied.

I am going to make the most of the little time that I have left in this miserable, selfish life. Right here, right now.

Is the only one I know…

Still Life

A friend gave us some pumpkins from his garden.

I woke up after a night of insomnia to the morning light streaming through our kitchen window. They were begging for me to take their picture so I pulled my iPhone and snapped a couple of pictures using Adobe Lightroom. I can decide which one I like best… What do you think?

As always, please click on the image to see it bigger.

O Dinis - Portuguese Food from Heaven

It all started as a quick day trip…

My wife participates on online auctions, where she finds great deals for stuff that we need for the new house.

She’d told me at the beginning of the week that she put a bid on dresser to replace the one in our room. It looked fantastic and it was the same brand and style as her dresser, so we could not let it pass.

What she later found out, was that the auction was to be held in Easton, Massachussets!!

She politely asked if we could go, and I saw it as an opportunity to spend more time with her on a quick day trip.

I plugged the address on my GPS and away we went to Easton MA.

The day was beautiful and traffic was very light, so we were cruising through Connecticut, Rhode Island and Massachussets.

!22 Miles later, we rolled into a gated community where we got our dresser and a night stand.

We loaded the two pieces of furniture on my car and we were immediately on our way back home.

As it was almost around lunch time, we decided to stop at a Portuguese restaurant in Rhode Island that I had researched online before the trip.

 O Dinis Portuguese Cuisine

O Dinis Portuguese Cuisine

When we got there, we had a hard time finding a parking spot as it is not really a big place and parking is on the street.

We knew that the fact that there wasn’t any parking spaces, meant that the restaurant was pack and that were not going to be disappointed.

 Not too big, not too small…

Not too big, not too small…

We sat by the window and ordered a couple of Portuguese beers and a Chouriço Grelhado (Grilled Portuguese Sausage) as an appetizer.

The beers were nice and cold and the sausage was delectable. As always, my wife said that she was full even before we got to our main dishes!

She went for the Carne de Porco Alentejana (Marinated pork and fried potatoes with steamed littlenecks). I told her that was a big dish and that I though that it would be too much for her…

 Carne de Porco Alentejana

Carne de Porco Alentejana

I decided to go for the Bife á Casa (Panseared sirloin steak in a beer and garlic sauce served with French fries, fried egg and rice)

 Bife a Casa

Bife a Casa

Both dishes were probably some of the best food we have ever eaten around the New England area. The Alentejada was so flavorful that I almost kicked myself for not ordering that. My steak was juicy and cooked to perfection. I had a hard time finishing the dish but I wasn’t going to tell my wife about it.

As I though, my wife was not able to finish hers and we asked the nice waitress for a doggie bag.

She came back and asked if we wanted some coffee or some dessert. We were so full that we were about to decline, but I asked for a list anyways. She started going down the list and we had to stop her when she got to the Passion Fruit Moose.

I didn’t take a picture of the dessert as it was gone in a few seconds. It was that good!!

We told our waitress that we had come all the way from Connecticut and she was kind enough to give us some cordials on the house. She went as far as to give us a kiss as we were leaving (a very Portuguese tradition).

What a great dinning experience!!

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We definitely have to go back some time in the future. The only regrettably thing is how far it is. I wish they have a franchise around our area.

We left Rhode Island with a full belly and a warm heart. I love O Dinis!

The Elegance of Technology

I don’t pretend to know everything. I don’t even pretend to know a little. I am humble like that…. 😃

I always admit when I don’t know something.

The thing I think I am most proud in my personality is the fact that I have an inquisitive mind; a thirst for knowledge and for finding answers or scratching the surface of something new.

I think that is why I love technology so much.

I also don’t pretend that technology holds all the answers.

I does not… just because there are new things invented/created on a daily basis and what was an answer yesterday finds a different response today or tomorrow.

That is the nature of innovation.

 The interplay of light and shadow at Yale University

The interplay of light and shadow at Yale University

I took this picture in 2009 with my then new, Nikon D80. It was during a photowalk around Yale University in New Haven Connecticut.

It was languishing in my hard drive together with all the other pictures that me and my son took that day (he wanted to be with his dad, so I told him he could go with me and I gave him my old Canon G9 so he could take pictures as well).

I have come a long way in my post processing and one of the things I love to do is go back into my libraries to reprocess old images and see what new treatment I will give to the images that I have not process or that were not worthy of a second look before.

One kind of finds some jewels with the help of new techniques and processing software.

I think the image was ok in color, but that interplay between the columns and the light was clamoring for a Black and white treatment.

In color it was ok, it Black and White it was awesome!!

I think is a lesson that says: “Don’t throw away your images, you never know when technology is going to catch up to your expectations and creative endeavors”